hello 2015

iI want this year to be great 

I wanna be a great person 

Im giving up my audit life! 

Im taking back my life! 

I want to make more money this year..

I wanna finish reading the translated quran.. 

I wanna be a better person with a heart for others welfare..

I wanna see the world.. Target this year

Japan 

Vietnam

Turkey

Insya Allah 

Last but never the least

I want a Man!! haha 

But most of all I just wanna live my life to the fullest, keep calm and remember Allah..

#4

 last 4 days 

ohhh how i forgotten

i forget how i used to love writing
way before typing is our specialty

i used to write things that pleases me
write to my friends
in those cute little papers

write down those sweetest text i got

all because i know then
and i know now

thats the only way
that our conversation can be permanent
thats how people touches my heart
sincerity can always be felt
by their writings

but now
i cant even find the strength to type
what more writing
i know
excuses
i am just pure lazy

okay stop blabbering about my lingering thought about writing

lately
i felt burden
by my new position at work
eventhough it is just my 1st week
i really feel like i cant handle it

so much i will forego if i wanna do this
i dont know how to be more efficient
and still have energy for my family and friends after work

im sacrificing my holiday my weekend
is it worth it?

i know it will be worth it
i cant wait to take long holidays next year
long long ones

1 month work 1 month off then 1 month work then off again
wow wow wow

im scared because of the things i dont know
im scared for my future
im scared if im not yet ready

i know all this feeling are those i have to face to matter what
and just do it and be done with it

tomorrow will come
the day will come
it always does

only lately i felt good being taken care of

Dear God,
please give me someone that will take care of me
treat me well
adores me
always will smile at me
talk softly to me

but not only that
the one that can correct me when im wrong too
the one that always will give me the best advise
when im doing something wrong he will correct me
but in a way that i know it is for my best

**

this time after came back from kl
i admit that something have change
for the better i hope

im now more patient
im now more relax
im now more independent
im now open to other peoples idea

because i realized the old me
was not the only me i wanna be

i want to cherish the friends i have now
i want to cherish every little moments i can

it might sound petty
but i have waited for for way too long
leaving in shadow
healing in my own way
through my darkest path
no more

i wanna stay in the light
i wanna be bright
i wanna smile and make people happy

in a way i can be happy too
its a priceless feeling i guess

L o V e

back at home

i break my record 

driving at 190km 

but that wasnt on purpose

i was fast but 

the road was too clear 

and plus plus

it was a down hill

haha justifying my wrong

sorry 

i came back home smiling

i came back with a new mind set

refresh and ready to go again

im tired now

wanna nap for a while

stay tune.. 

my friends

they joke like theres tomorrow 

thanks guys for always temaning me

n tahaning my annoyance :) 

 

为什么在乎？

我觉得他没有必要解释

跟你解释

因该是我自己在烦恼

所以想太多

同伴谢啦！ 

你呢

难道是我自私？

难道是我在这里太久

你明知道我要回去了

但你还是留下

难道是我自私

找一个人来陪我

然后离开我

是真的

我了情人

朋友肯定忘

谢谢你

你

谢谢你给我的安全感

在我需要的时候

对我好

紧张的时候

劝告我

叫我要稳定

不知道为什么你好了解我

我很感恩

我很感谢

我说过了再说一遍

你是世界上最好的人

短短几个礼拜的话 

就学了好多

你一点也不想年轻我两岁的人

充满智慧于乐趣

谢啦 朋友 这次上来 真的很开心

也谢谢你

让我忘他一下 

被人关心感觉好好

世界突然觉得很充满

我充电了

我不会放弃的！

被关心的感觉真的太好了

可是我也需要学关心别人

从满笑容的日子

不要结束那么快

big fish

today last day 

tomorrow game day

i thought being with people is what i need

but actually it was being alone

this pressure is too big 

no words can tune it down 

 

im going to bed crying tonight 

prolly i tired myself to sleep 

good night ayu 

u will be fine tomorrow 

worried but not allowed

im worried 

im worried

im worried 

i know chanting that im worried 

wont make it go away 

or neither will it be lesser 

i felt that i have no place or a stand to worry 

issit because of what i told u? 

should i have kept it to myself

people do say ignorance is a bliss 

i dislike knowing things from a third party 

but thats the only way 

i have no place nor a stand remember?

the boat that sailed away 

because i forgot to rail the anchor 

grateful

this is a grateful feeling

blessed n loved 

sandy beach

i hate this feeling 

is it me being selfish again

is it me being arrogant again

i really hate being told to do or not to do 

people are always putting themselves first 

me too nonetheless 

me here silently hating how i feel 

becuase my words arent strong 

i will just lose at the end 

 

i gone back to the stairs

i gone back to the stairs thousands time

where u left me

where u eager to leave me

where u broke my heart 

but i no longer feel that is anyboday fault

if the universe gave me a chance to go back 

i wont miss this 

i will do it all again 

without mistakes i wont learn 

without heart break i wont cherish

without pain i wont know joy 

without u i wont be as strong as i am

without u i wont found him

...

What do I like???

You..

Always have 

Always will 

But in my own way..

Letters oh how can I like u so much :3 

Happy 1st Anniversary in Audit World

Im am glad I stayed strong

A little while more than before

Now i kinda like my job

Resigning is like a word we say on a daily basis, MC too.. 

Im glad i have friends now

Good ones nice one sweet on weird one

Lets stay  at least another 6 months haha

New hair

Lets write something before i go to bed.. 

Long day at the saloon today.. Havent cut my hair in ages.. Just chop of more than half of it.. Wala! 

I wonder

I wonder if u ever wonder about me.. 

 

I wanna fall in love again.. 

I miss the feeling to care so much about someone.. 

But I want the one.. That one that would sweep me of my feet.. That one that will take all my problems away.. Stand by me when im at my worst.. 

Someone that makes me crazy smiling weirdly in love.. 

Insya Allah.. My turn will be soon.. I believe in Allah.. All great things happen to people who are patient.. Those great things He is planning for me.. Insya Allah Amin.. 

What do u call alive but no life ??

Audit!!!

Haha

I have gazellion work to do.. 

But im taking a time off now.. 

Gonna resume as soon as I finish writing..

Resuming in 5 4 3 2 1..

And add the time to upload this..

Keke

Suddenly

Suddenly I feel like travelling overseas

To see the world out there

Lets work like hell and gain all those OT

Then go holiday

Huhuuuuw 

Im tired

What do I love? 

What am I passionate about? 

What do I want to achieve in life? 

What do I stand for? 

Who am I? 

I have no idea.. 

Im just living day by day by day.. 

I will smile and do my best! 

I only know I wont give up! 

My last week- before starting of antisocial stressful life

Let the photos do the talking k? 

 

 

 

Ok done.. 

Work work work work .. 

One step closer to everything :) 

Forget mi

I will try my very best

Its good that i know my weakness

Never regret and be stronger and wiser 

Asset Sighting

Pity my leather shoe.. Although its not a fancy shoe but its my new shoe bought by myself but papa kinda paid for it .. Lulz 

Im bored have to wait for the site manager for one hour.. T-T 

Lucky got internet and battery.. 

Blessing in disguise? 

Im on top , near a cylo, the wind are smooth, the whether are cloudy.. Am I on vacation? 

If theres food and juice here it will be perfect.. 

Happy New Year

Starting of a new year.. Not that excited cos we Johorian have no public holiday on the 1st day of the year.. But anyway a simple update of me.. My new year resolution gonna be " Make every day meant something, at least for myself" 

Some new year resolution that I hope to achieve this 2014

1. Loose weight (every yr the same) 

2. Get my eyes lazered.. Haha

3. Go to Australia 

4. Wear hijab 

5. Be more patient 

6. Love everyone more

7. Be positive

8. Be pretty 😘

Ok! Thats is some of my new year reso, still got more but thats for myself.. Ngee 

Ciao 

 

Nah one photo of Fat me! Photo just came back counting cows.. Yeah cows.. 

Till next time 

Me too wanna be a cool person! Dilemma cause people dont get up there by being cool or playing nice.. 💩