big fish

today last day 

tomorrow game day

i thought being with people is what i need

but actually it was being alone

this pressure is too big 

no words can tune it down 

 

im going to bed crying tonight 

prolly i tired myself to sleep 

good night ayu 

u will be fine tomorrow 

worried but not allowed

im worried 

im worried

im worried 

i know chanting that im worried 

wont make it go away 

or neither will it be lesser 

i felt that i have no place or a stand to worry 

issit because of what i told u? 

should i have kept it to myself

people do say ignorance is a bliss 

i dislike knowing things from a third party 

but thats the only way 

i have no place nor a stand remember?

the boat that sailed away 

because i forgot to rail the anchor 

grateful

this is a grateful feeling

blessed n loved 

sandy beach

i hate this feeling 

is it me being selfish again

is it me being arrogant again

i really hate being told to do or not to do 

people are always putting themselves first 

me too nonetheless 

me here silently hating how i feel 

becuase my words arent strong 

i will just lose at the end