Friday, October 24, 2014

ohhh how i forgotten



i forget how i used to love writing
way before typing is our specialty

i used to write things that pleases me
write to my friends
in those cute little papers

write down those sweetest text i got

all because i know then
and i know now

thats the only way
that our conversation can be permanent
thats how people touches my heart
sincerity can always be felt
by their writings

but now
i cant even find the strength to type
what more writing
i know
excuses
i am just pure lazy

okay stop blabbering about my lingering thought about writing



lately
i felt burden
by my new position at work
eventhough it is just my 1st week
i really feel like i cant handle it

so much i will forego if i wanna do this
i dont know how to be more efficient
and still have energy for my family and friends after work

im sacrificing my holiday my weekend
is it worth it?

i know it will be worth it
i cant wait to take long holidays next year
long long ones

1 month work 1 month off then 1 month work then off again
wow wow wow

im scared because of the things i dont know
im scared for my future
im scared if im not yet ready

i know all this feeling are those i have to face to matter what
and just do it and be done with it

tomorrow will come
the day will come
it always does

only lately i felt good being taken care of




Dear God,
please give me someone that will take care of me
treat me well
adores me
always will smile at me
talk softly to me

but not only that
the one that can correct me when im wrong too
the one that always will give me the best advise
when im doing something wrong he will correct me
but in a way that i know it is for my best

**

this time after came back from kl
i admit that something have change
for the better i hope

im now more patient
im now more relax
im now more independent
im now open to other peoples idea

because i realized the old me
was not the only me i wanna be

i want to cherish the friends i have now
i want to cherish every little moments i can

it might sound petty
but i have waited for for way too long
leaving in shadow
healing in my own way
through my darkest path
no more

i wanna stay in the light
i wanna be bright
i wanna smile and make people happy

in a way i can be happy too
its a priceless feeling i guess

L o V e















Sunday, October 19, 2014

back at home

i break my record 
driving at 190km 
but that wasnt on purpose
i was fast but 
the road was too clear 
and plus plus
it was a down hill
haha justifying my wrong
sorry 

i came back home smiling
i came back with a new mind set
refresh and ready to go again

im tired now
wanna nap for a while
stay tune.. 

Friday, October 10, 2014

my friends


they joke like theres tomorrow 

thanks guys for always temaning me

n tahaning my annoyance :) 

 

Thursday, October 9, 2014

为什么在乎?

我觉得他没有必要解释
跟你解释

因该是我自己在烦恼

所以想太多

同伴谢啦! 

你呢

难道是我自私?
难道是我在这里太久

你明知道我要回去了
但你还是留下
难道是我自私

找一个人来陪我
然后离开我

是真的
我了情人
朋友肯定忘

Friday, October 3, 2014

谢谢你


谢谢你给我的安全感
在我需要的时候
对我好
紧张的时候
劝告我
叫我要稳定
不知道为什么你好了解我
我很感恩
我很感谢

我说过了再说一遍
你是世界上最好的人

短短几个礼拜的话 
就学了好多
你一点也不想年轻我两岁的人
充满智慧于乐趣
谢啦 朋友 这次上来 真的很开心

也谢谢你
让我忘他一下 

被人关心感觉好好
世界突然觉得很充满
我充电了
我不会放弃的!

被关心的感觉真的太好了
可是我也需要学关心别人

从满笑容的日子
不要结束那么快